Every day I remember
How easy it is to just type
Those letters that form your name
And find pages of you in an instant's fraction
Every day I remember
That when my fingers itch
To trace the familiar pattern on
Those keys
It is not you who will be present
Every day I am reminded
That absence was always there
And that the faux replacement
Never really took me from the shadows
Of longing
Every day I wonder
If I will finally give in
And dissolve my resolve
To not try to find you again
Every day your two syllables
Fall from my lips in whispers
Light as snow floating from the sky
Though my tongue bears the weight of
An avalanche of words unsaid
Every day
Another heart fills an empty space
That proves I have lasted
One more day without you
And
Every day
I wish that I didn't have to
